What makes you feel guilty the most?

😊😊😊

It’s not only my son. On weekends, my mother calls me at 9.00 AM so that we can have a good talk for at least 15–20 minutes. On weekdays, I am busy with my routine responsibilities so we talk for hardly 10 minutes. But on weekends when I am too tired and just want some more time for self, I don’t take her call or I ask her to call her later.

This morning, I woke up 7 AM so that I can have some time for myself. I exercise, read, create some content, and just sit with coffee. I may be tired enough during weekdays to wake up, but I look forward to weekends for this me time.

Study shows that early humans climbed trees and worked with stone - Earth.com

My son has been unwell since yesterday and this morning, he woke up at 8.00 AM. I was frustrated to the core because on other days, he doesn’t wake up before 9.30 AM. On most of the weekends, I just enjoy my me-time and start with my breakfast preparation by 9.00 AM. Then his cranky behavior started and it continued till 11.00 AM. My energy for the day was already drained.

Yes, I am guilty of this behavior. Why am I avoiding my loved ones to sit alone and do nothing great? I am guilty and helpless. This is kind of my guilt, but I need this to drive through the week.

Sounds really selfish, I know. I am actually guilty of this, but I end up doing this every weekend. I hate days when my mother-in-law wants me to do something over the weekend. I look forward to this weekend.

What happens when you have paranoid schizophrenia?

Writing here with the fear of being judged!!